a start of anything else before anything else ... oh yes .

assalamualaikum . 

look , i dont do much in english writing . dont expect this was a good idea in translating any english words . if you think im sort of crazy on writing my story in English, but couldnt tell much about it, well u can judge by yourself. 

how do i say this , a longtime feeling on writing a blog before, never tried it out cause i think a time could be spent well on other things. The thing is , i will always felt better on writing a blog. why? its like something to express the feeling tool . (instead of the broken language)

7 years of knowing about life out there should be enough to make me a little stronger to face danger or harmful things about life. To be honest , its myself that i need to face every single day more than anything else. i hate being dishonest to myself . most fully in making decisions. im faking a lot sometimes. but sometimes its for the sake of better condition. so what can i say , fake for the sake of better person. why? i already try to be fully honest , it feels so ugly infront of other eyes . (its the world speaking)

what are the definition of better life? 

lets check to the next session of me writing another version of me later on.